Ever wondered why it is so hard to make friends ..I mean REAL friends as we grow older? When I was 5 I had 2 best friends.. Of course every few years it was someone different. It was Anna Jebaraj when I was 6, Dorothy when I was 7, Diana Joseph for the next two years , then came Merlin and then the girl who I never fully understood. I still think of our times together- all 5 years of it - the happy ones and the really painful ones and I fail to understand her completely. And no we were not lesbians although some thought we were. Duh!!
Then I entered college and wasted two years searching for someone who I could connect with. Someone who would share my tastes. Scorn things I scorn. Like the same movies and books that I did. Finally I met Sangeetha. Till this day I find it hard to believe that she puts up with me. (Thanks Pangi.)
Then came post graduation. Everybody had their own set of friends - school friends, apartment gang, UG gang, ex-gf's friends.. so many of it. And most of us tried hard to hold on to those remaining links from childhood that connecting on an emotional level with someone new was difficult. Along the way I missed some of the wonderful friends I grew up with. Some moved away.. some grew up.. I changed.. There are always reasons.
At work I met nice people and finally grew close to two.
But now, sitting at home, jobless - yeah yeah I married , quit my job- dumb thing to do.. but I did - I realize that the frequency with which I make friends had decreased exponentially since the age of 12.
My comfort zone got smaller, my acquaintance list got longer, my facebook network grew wider and yet I have made no new friends with whom I can cry. Granted that the opportunities to interact are less , I still find it sad. The world gets smaller everyday and the circle we love gets smaller too?!!??!!
Then I entered college and wasted two years searching for someone who I could connect with. Someone who would share my tastes. Scorn things I scorn. Like the same movies and books that I did. Finally I met Sangeetha. Till this day I find it hard to believe that she puts up with me. (Thanks Pangi.)
Then came post graduation. Everybody had their own set of friends - school friends, apartment gang, UG gang, ex-gf's friends.. so many of it. And most of us tried hard to hold on to those remaining links from childhood that connecting on an emotional level with someone new was difficult. Along the way I missed some of the wonderful friends I grew up with. Some moved away.. some grew up.. I changed.. There are always reasons.
At work I met nice people and finally grew close to two.
But now, sitting at home, jobless - yeah yeah I married , quit my job- dumb thing to do.. but I did - I realize that the frequency with which I make friends had decreased exponentially since the age of 12.
My comfort zone got smaller, my acquaintance list got longer, my facebook network grew wider and yet I have made no new friends with whom I can cry. Granted that the opportunities to interact are less , I still find it sad. The world gets smaller everyday and the circle we love gets smaller too?!!??!!
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